Long haul for birthday excuse

I've been putting my 21st birthday which passed two months ago as an excuse for buying stuffs.

I'm sure I'm not alone, I'm sure I'm not the only girl in this world who does that? lol



this was one of the first round.
cross skirt, sparkly gold shorts and top from : El Wardrobe 

I love my zara transparent clutch ttm! :)

second round! the Dr Martens were a gift:)
I couldn't decided between whether to get the grey or black jacket so i bought them both!



I'm not to the pathetic extend where I'll buy myself flowers, lol,
I love long branches roses and only long branches :) they were given.




My one and only wanting for so long- Pandora.
I'm so glad they have the charms that I picked from the internet. SO GLAD!
it's another nice 21st birthday gift:) sighhh, i like it with the gold knob :)



the 3 of them were bought recently because I was so pissed that day :x




I was pissed because I have the same pair from Zara in gold!
and it costed me so much to buy that which Vincci is selling theirs for more than half price!
insanely pissed.


see u guys next time :P
this was just meant to be a short update

A break

A series of misfortunate events has surpass my life for a few weeks now.
One of them includes the death of my beloved grandmother who raised me up from young.
Her death was shocking. it bought tears, grief, and a unmeasurable void left in my heart.
It was also the most cruel countdown that I had to ever face.
Times like these you need to have a break in your life,
Times like these got me thinking about death and living,
Times like these got me thinking where would you'll be after death;
and how can we be so sure that the person who died is in a better place 'heaven'?
Have you ever experience holding someone's hand and watch them fight for their last breath?
Well my grandmother was the first one that I had to experience saying goodbye to forever.
I never knew how much pain would cause that you'll never see that person ever again.
Sitting on her bed where she used to lay, with the curtains closed and only the heaviness in the air,
hearing the clock ticking with no presence in the room has made me realize how drastically insensitive reality can be.
I guess that's what the 'real' in reality is used for.

I will need to blog about her because if i don't I may not be able to move forward.
But i know now's not the right time because I haven't handle it well yet.
And I know what I blog about will be just fake happiness that I pretend,
until i learn how to grow out and move on from this grief.
So I'm sincerely sorry that I will not be blogging as much as I want to for maybe this month or so,
I need a breather for this chapter of my life.


till then my beloved readers, I hope you'll understand

Sparkling blues

top : pink cropped cut out from BLUEYJOYCE

bottom : topshop inspired aqua sequin skirt from UGLY DUCKLING CLOSET

shoes : DIY

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Remember the time when I say I was omg-ing all the way when I received a parcel from

Ugly Duckling Closet? Well it was because of this skirt that I’ve been eyeing for a long

long time in Topshop since it first landed on the rack a couple of months ago. This skirt

is phenomenal; its absolute shine is total attention grabbing. Almost like an aqua disco

ball, gosh the color (!) a mix of peacock and mermaid! A hybrid that’s what I call it. 

And of course it was so much cheaper and affordable than Topshop.

I was waiting for a day that I could wear it out; because it’s charming shine needed to

suit a charming event too. And of course, it needed a pair of charming shinny shoes!
I'm still very much happy of my new DIY shoes.
So I decided to wear it out for my buddy’s graduation

exhibition. It’s funny how I haven’t blog about my exhibition yet, lol.

Thank you again Ugly Duckling for knowing my taste so well, thank you!:) 

 Recent buys from a trip to the book store 

Recently I’ve been living on coffee in the morning accompanied by a book, the book

will be my breakfast partner and the one I go to to get my mind off stuffs. I never

have coffee all the time; the only time I usually have it is when I’m rushing on

assignments. Even now there’s a cup of caramel macchiato by my side when I’m

typing these out. April hasn’t been very good on me, and frankly it’s been more than

rough because I have to deal with so many personal stuffs coming at me all together.

Honestly it’s been the roughest for a long time now, and I’m struggling everyday

trying to get pass it. Struggling is a word that I hardly type out and being so bare and

vulnerable now is just not my thing that I show to anyone anymore. I don’t know since

when I started to bubble up my problems and built a wall around me that hides my true

emotions. It’s good tho so that people wouldn’t know what you’re thinking, it’s bad at

the same time as well because I’m having trouble finding the right person where I can

share all my feelings with. You know some of those 'friends' who just ask how are you

just for the sake of asking or to start a convo, they don't really care about how you feel 

to be honest, or what really bothers you isn't what they want to hear.

At the same time, I wish I had that person or friend that I can 

lay on the beach together with, showered by stars on a 3am sky.

Call me hopelessly romantic I just wish those days would come true...

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Ankle boots + Bling DIY

This is result for my latest DIY project.

I bought these knee length boots from Forever 21 a few months ago that I had to keep

because it was one of those pretty pairs that were on crazy sale and I had to buy it and

try to figure out a way to innovate it later, haha. I wanted to put studs on them at first

but through time I didn’t think that it would reach my fondness; I love studs but I also

wanted to push myself to get out of my comfort zone of just playing with studs. So in 

the end I opted for a more bling and elegant look instead of the punkish boots that 

I was going for at the start.

So here's how I did this project that I'm sure all of you can do too :)

see, pretty easy right? 

I wore the bracelets here and bought two on impulse because of the sales again, 

They were too big for my small wrist; that's why don't throw away pretty things, 

you might need them for a DIY project in the future, haha.

I glued in the extra cloth after I cut the boots just to keep it neat. I didn’t want to cut it

at the edge because I think that would look awful, but if you already have low cut boots

you can skip the first step. It’s a very easy peasy DIY that I finished just within a day. 

It could have took a shorter time because I was over persnickety about where the gems

should be placed, I tried a few designs and decided to go with this one after the forth

attempt, and I think that arranging and deciding where the blings should be decorated

on is the most fun process of this whole diy :) 

Happy DIY people!

hehe I'm most pleased with the outcome and can't wait to share an outfit post with you soon!

p/s I'm still having major problems finding the right broadband brand for my stupid condo which does not support unifi :(